I like conservatives. Not all conservatives. Not the bomb bomb bomb bomb bomb Iran kind or the endangered white male victim kind. But the Traditionalist kind. The Old Right, Paleolibertarian, fuck-you-mind-your-own-damn-business kind. I like people like Bill Kaufman, Wendell Berry, Ron Paul and H.L. Mencken. I admire the prose and courage of Yukio Mishima. I appreciate the insight of Martin Heidegger. I think Oswald Spengler's ideas are at least as prophetic as those of Gramsci and Marx. I even think Alain de Benoist has a few good ideas (and about 67 bad ones). Justin Raimondo used to be one of my favorite writers before he mysteriously vanished up Donald Trump's orange asshole. And I consider antifa-hate-thing Troy Southgate to be a personal friend of mine.
This isn't to say that I consider myself to be a conservative. Not by a long shot. I'm a queer Yippie anarchist who's madly in love with the Frankfurt School, still reactively defends the legacy of the Cuban Revolution and supports reparations, albeit voluntary ones. I've been called an SJW so many times, I mistake it for my initials. But I also have a lot in common with the more anti-establishment fringes of the right. I love guns, hate the government and despise Joe Biden almost as much as I do Hillary Clinton. I genuinely believe that an ideal society should be centered around agrarian village life and that the millionaires in Manhattan and Bel Air are so divorced from reality that they don't even realize that they're already living in hell. I even got my start sharpening my literary teeth as an online provocateur on the boards of the isolationist antiwar.com. (Scott Horton won't publish me because he has a bug up his ass about Gonzo journalism but my dear friend Angela Keaton will probably die trying to convince him otherwise, god bless her soul.) But in spite of all this common ground, most Traditional Conservatives don't like me. Most Traditional Conservatives don't like me because they are repulsed by my fluid gender identity.
The general opinion of many of the few fabulous conservatives on trannies like me is that we're some kind of perverted aberration of decadent western values. The painfully ironic thing is that this couldn't be farther from the truth. With the recent revival of pre-Christian ideals on the Traditional Right their remains no more logical reason for these folks not to embrace the burgeoning Queer Revolution. The whole concept of two biologically exclusive genders is the product of puritanical Judeo-Christianity and malignant metropolitan modernity. Long story short, it is the gender binary that is the perverted aberration of decadent western values.
Nearly all ancient pre-Christian civilizations from the Amazon to the Danube recognized the existence of third genders, people who in today's world would be labeled transgender. Many pagan deities from Odin to Dionysus exhibited gender bending attributes and in the ancient world many people like me were not only accepted but revered members of our tribes, often serving as shaman or medicine women. To this day, the tribal communities least affected and most resistant to modern "progress" retain space for people outside of the gender binary, from the Muxe of Zapotec Oaxaca to the Hijra of rural india.
In this light, the rise of "new" gender identities outside of the binary should be seen in a similar light to the rise of the Neopagan Movement. We are people struggling to honor our spirits beyond the limited opportunities of the modern scientific establishment that holds so little respect for the sacred. We are trying to return to the roots of a more spiritual society. I could give you reams of scientific studies showing that gender identities like my own originate in the womb. But labels and numbers will always fail to capture the transcendent peace I find expressing my androgyny through ritual and community. Being transgender, whether you identify as genderqueer, non-binary, two-spirit or genderfluid, is a profoundly spiritual experience. It is something deeply sacred that is ingrained in our very souls. Something that centuries of modern tyranny failed to suppress. We are not the product of late-capitalist decadence. We are a rejection of its shallow materialistic values. We have been given a choice and we have chosen our souls over our bodies. Something tells me that Jung would be proud.
In this new era of climate catastrophe and technological isolation, as empires crash and burn like wayward zeppelins, young people across the spiritually depleted expanse of the First World are looking inward for salvation. With the uncanny connectivity of modernties great suicide machine known as the internet, a new era of tribal awareness is upon us. People have grown weary of the empty commercialism and savage ultraviolence of progress. We want something new. We want something old. We want to belong. The age of ethnic class division has reached a fever pitch in this twilight of suburbs and towers. The new tribes will not be built upon the petty distinctions of biology but by the metaphysical power of the soul that truly connects us. To those on the right who I admire but still make the mistake to disparage my tribe, I am here to say, I am with you. We are all on the same side of history. Lets make it together.
Peace, Love & Empathy- CH
Soundtrack; songs that influenced this post
* Human Behavior by Bjork
* Roots Bloody Roots by Sepultura
* (Nothing But) Flowers by Talking Heads
* The Suburbs by Father John Misty
* Life On Mars by David Bowie
* The Glorious Land by PJ Harvey
* Call From the Grave by Bathory
* Staralfur by Sigur Ros
Hey, Comrade, just a comment about a memory I have from my youth. When I was a kid (or at least a teenager), my sister, Sue went to an alternative High School because she just didn't fit in. She learned some things there that I never encountered in my traditional schooling. One day she was talking to me about learning that biological hermaphrodites were considered sacred in many Native American societies and were given special honor among them.
ReplyDeleteNow, my entire immediate family were gender binary heterosexuals, so I am apt to be a bit dense here, but, at least with the case of true hermaphrodites, you've got a point. How does the traditionalist conservative explain them away? They cannot be considered either male or female physiologically (although, as I understand it, they are virtually always genetically male and can even father children). The gender binary absolutist would have a tough time even accepting them having romantic relationships, because how can you be sure they are with the "correct" gender.
While I am quite at peace with my binary gender identity, it would be quite hypocritical of me to wish to impose that mold on everyone. If I have evaluated my emotions and thoughts enough to consider myself to be a heterosexual man, and I would resist to the death anyone trying to force me to view myself otherwise, where in the fuck would I (or a traditionalist absolutist) get off trying to force that model on anyone else?
If we truly do reap what we sow, there will be enough accounting for things to go around, and we will all come to terms with the unkind things we have thought, said, and done. Those who impose will likewise be imposed upon. While I am not wishing ill on anyone, and I hope there is some type of universal forgiveness built into the Universe, it would seem to me that we will all someday be quite shocked when we learn of the things we have caused to be, both good and bad.